There was nothing left for her here. She made a small noise in her throat that could have been a chuckle.
"And I suppose you have. I've never spoken on this at all before. The other men, the other alchemists...I barely thought of them as people. I still don't. They used me as much as I used them. Lujon...he didn't. There was never even anything physical between us, but he...." she couldn't finish the sentence. It still hurt and frightened her, how Lujon had loved her.
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There was nothing left for her here. She made a small noise in her throat that could have been a chuckle.
"And I suppose you have. I've never spoken on this at all before. The other men, the other alchemists...I barely thought of them as people. I still don't. They used me as much as I used them. Lujon...he didn't. There was never even anything physical between us, but he...." she couldn't finish the sentence. It still hurt and frightened her, how Lujon had loved her.
"He was a good man that cared. And I killed him."
There. She'd said it.