explosivecombat: (What do you want from me?)
Solf J Kimblee ([personal profile] explosivecombat) wrote in [community profile] route_1065 2012-08-01 04:19 pm (UTC)

"In some ways, yes."

That much is genuine, at least. At the same time, Kimblee falls quiet for a moment, both for the sake of seeking words and trying to find a way to keep from facepalming violently; he manages to succeed in both endeavors, though it's more difficult than he'd like it to be.

"Does it really not occur to you that perhaps that incident made me a bit wary of you? Constantly shifting your behavior to cater to my reaction doesn't help - if anything, it makes you look suspicious. Perhaps I've been misreading it, and been a bit harsher on you than I should; at the same time, I never asked you to do anything like that, and I never threatened to leave before this last incident.

"You also have a tendency to tell me things just to try to win me over; it's not something that inspires confidence, I'll tell you that much now. You say that you understand if I don't trust you again for a while, then begin acting strangely and thinking I'm manipulative when I don't trust you immediately. You tell me that you know something you're doing is going to bother me, that I have problems with it, but you act as though I'm either an idiot or a child when I express that I don't like what you're doing - that I 'don't understand' or that it's for my own good, and you have to have a third party explain that perhaps I may have had a serious problem with your actions. You don't seem to realize that I don't care what you think I want to hear. If you want this to work at all, you need to tell me what the status quo actually is, rather than telling me things just to try to keep me happy and expecting me to read your mind and know when you aren't.

"I know that I'm difficult to work with, Archer. I heard a fair amount when I was made to work with people in the past - that I'm overly demanding and aggressive and impossible to talk to because I always have to be 'right,' that I'm prideful and arrogant and act as though everyone is below me, that I overestimate myself and try to work through things on my own when that really isn't appropriate, that my way of handling certain issues is so distant or cold that I don't even seem human. If you've thought it, chances are that I've already heard it, and I work alone because I know I've never worked well with others; I'm willing to try to work with you because you seem to understand where I'm coming from better than most do. So if you're not understanding something or you're taking up issue with something I'm doing, you need to tell me; I'm far more difficult to truly offend than you seem to think I am, and I'm aware that people take up issue with the way I work. This isn't new information to me, but I can't amend anything if you don't tell me what needs to be amended in the first place."

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