[ ...he doesn't really want to talk about it with Ren at all, since he bets Ren will hardly be sympathetic. But -- well, at least he's not expecting sympathy anyway. ]

I wasn't good enough. Not compared to Natsuki, anyway.

[ raising his gaze to glare, now -- ]

-- And I didn't want to stress myself out, all right?! [ (FOR REASONS.) ]