She flinched away from his anger, wrapping her arms around herself. She prayed no one was paying attention to them. Her throat felt thick and she struggled to breathe. She couldn't remember ever feeling like this.

"I don't know what else to say. I did horrible things back then. I cant change them, I can't...make up for them." She shook her head, still staring down. Her eyes felt hot.

"I made mistakes. And I just...didn't want to hurt you with that truth, now, here, when it doesn't mean anything." And then she'd forgotten, in a sense. She didn't think about that time much. It was painful and miserable and gone now. "I just didn't want to cause you more pain."

That had clearly failed. Spectacularly. She swallowed thickly, finally looking up at him, eyes bright with tears.

"I'm sorry."