Yeah. I could use it after all the shit I've been through.
[He laughs, but it doesn't sound very genuine. It doesn't take long for that serious expression to return and for Mondo to glance away. This is the most difficult part of the story, but it's something he needs to tell Daiya. He can't have his brother thinking that he's a good person, now can he?]
One of the guys killed one of the girls. He was found out and executed. Then...
[His voice catches and Mondo glances downwards so his pompadour is covering his expression, just like Daiya is doing.]
...I got in a fight with one of the kids. He said something that really pissed me off and I... I lost my temper and... I guess I killed him. Time works pretty weirdly here so it hasn't happened for me yet, but he told me and... and I don't think there's anything I can do to stop it when I go back. S-So I'm gonna... I'm gonna kill him.
[Mondo's voice catches again and he clears his throat.]
From... what I've heard... I don't get away with it. I'm kinda glad about that. I mean, I'm not glad that I get executed or anything! But I wouldn't wanna get away with it either, y'know?
[He falls silent, still staring down at the ground. He startles a bit when he realizes that he's crying and moves to swipe at his eyes as discreetly as possible.]
Fuck, I'm... I'm so sorry, aniki. I shouldn't have lost control, I shouldn't have ever killed anyone like that--! I'm... fuck, I'm a horrible person! I already got you killed and then I-- I--!
[He can't bring himself to finish. Mondo's shoulders shake as he tries to control his tears.]
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[He laughs, but it doesn't sound very genuine. It doesn't take long for that serious expression to return and for Mondo to glance away. This is the most difficult part of the story, but it's something he needs to tell Daiya. He can't have his brother thinking that he's a good person, now can he?]
One of the guys killed one of the girls. He was found out and executed. Then...
[His voice catches and Mondo glances downwards so his pompadour is covering his expression, just like Daiya is doing.]
...I got in a fight with one of the kids. He said something that really pissed me off and I... I lost my temper and... I guess I killed him. Time works pretty weirdly here so it hasn't happened for me yet, but he told me and... and I don't think there's anything I can do to stop it when I go back. S-So I'm gonna... I'm gonna kill him.
[Mondo's voice catches again and he clears his throat.]
From... what I've heard... I don't get away with it. I'm kinda glad about that. I mean, I'm not glad that I get executed or anything! But I wouldn't wanna get away with it either, y'know?
[He falls silent, still staring down at the ground. He startles a bit when he realizes that he's crying and moves to swipe at his eyes as discreetly as possible.]
Fuck, I'm... I'm so sorry, aniki. I shouldn't have lost control, I shouldn't have ever killed anyone like that--! I'm... fuck, I'm a horrible person! I already got you killed and then I-- I--!
[He can't bring himself to finish. Mondo's shoulders shake as he tries to control his tears.]