[He pauses again, tilting his head a little; it strikes him as kind of a weird question at first - obviously you're not going to want to hear someone justify why you had to die, that's going to be terrible no matter what. But when he thinks about it...it makes sense, he hadn't just thought about it in quite that way.]

Well, I guess my case was a little weird because I wasn't going to like the answer no matter what it was - there wasn't any way it was going to be okay. There was just one answer that would have been...well, less okay.

[He huffs a bit; this isn't coming out right, hold on.]

Basically, there were two reasons this person would have wanted to kill me - one would have been entirely selfish, because that'd mean they did it for personal gain. The second would have been because I'd...hurt them. In some way that was completely unforgivable. While the second would have been more justified, I don't think I would have been able to live with myself, knowing I'd done that to someone.

So both options were really bad; it was just a matter of working out what I'd be able to live with and what I wouldn't, and I was actually really relieved to hear that it'd happened for the selfish, less justified reason.

[...]

I'm sorry if I'm letting you down by not being able to answer; like I said, though, my circumstances are...kind of weird.