Ren took a few deep breaths to calm himself down. He continued hugging Utau, because that felt him make comfortable. She was there. She wasn't about to leave. Everything was alright.

"... you weren't here and I... found the lyrics you had written. Then Jewel appeared alone and looked sad and... I just... though..."

It was still too difficult to say it out loud, even if he was calmer than just now. His voice was shaky at the end of the sentence and he opted out on talking any more than that.