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Who: Roxas and Sora
Where: Outside Union Cave, Route 32
When: Forwarded to Friday afternoon
Summary: "Roxas, I am your father o___q" --Sora has a couple of questions for Roxas, and Roxas has agreed to get together and talk.
Rating: PG

"Roxas is a Nobody. My Nobody. Says he doesn't have a heart."

Three tiny slivers of information were all Sora had written down in the journal he'd been keeping for Jiminy Cricket. Though they were less information and more direct answers to questions he had, though he hadn't yet been able to connect the two. What is a Nobody? What did Roxas mean when he said he was, in a way, half of who Sora is? How the heck does one live without his or her heart? Last time Sora tried that trick, his body disintegrated into light, what senses he had left fell through the floor... and awakened again in Johto.

He had other questions, too, about doubles and lookalies, but... that wasn't exactly a subject Sora was interested in broaching, and he wondered if Roxas felt the same way. It'd already kept him awake at night enough since last week as it was. Sora closed the little notebook in his hands with a sigh as he sat himself down in the grass and waited for Roxas. The sudden new music wasn't really helping him relax, either.

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Roxas had been rather apprehensive about this conversation. He knew that was going to happen eventually, it had to. His connection to Sora was something that Sora had to know about. But at the same time, it wasn't a subject he was comfortable with, being a nobody, and what that meant. He wasn't even sure if he had all the answers.

It didn't take him long to find Sora, and to sit down across from him. Roxas paused for a moment before finally taking a breath.

"So, what did you want to talk about?"

Sora smiled at Roxas, a little apprehensive himself. As much as he wanted the answers, he couldn't help but be a little wary of them, too-- call it a fear of the unknown, a fear of not liking the answers Roxas had to give. Either way, if Roxas was his nobody-- whatever that connection implied-- that meant they could still be friends, right? He'd promised to let Roxas be his own person, and he had no intention of breaking that promise no matter what.

He ran a hand through his hair, not answering at first. He'd been thinking about how to ask his questions, but now that Roxas was sitting in front of him, the right words just flew out of his ears.

"Well... I guess I just want to know about you. Your story."

Roxas nodded, not sure what to say at first. He'd only been around for year, and a few months now, he figured, and while a lot had happened, there was a lot he wasn't all that sure of.

"There's not a whole lot to tell. A lot of it is fuzzy, actually. But I'll try my best." Roxas paused to take a breath.

"I don't remember a lot about when I first appeared, I think was like a zombie or something. Then I met Axel and he brought me to the Organization. I was there for almost a year, and then I left, because I wanted to know why the keyblade chose me." Roxas paused. It felt like he was missing something but couldn't remember what.

"After I left, I fought Riku and lost. The next time I woke up, I was in Twilight Town, and I didn't remember anything about before. All I knew then was that strange things were happening to me and that I was dreaming about you. I was in Twilight Town for a week, before learning that it was just a digital copy that the Guy in Red was keeping me in to prevent the Organization from coming for me. I got my memory back around that time as well, and then I met you, Sora. But you were asleep, and I was supposed to merge with you so you could wake up, but I ended up here instead."

That was about it, really. The short history of Roxas. He stared at the ground, drawing in the dirt with his finger.

That was... a lot of information. Sora didn't like how short Roxas' life has sounded so far, and to be honest, he had a hard time making sense of it. He's about his age, isn't it? What happened to being a kid? What about his parents? Maybe that was just stuff he didn't remember on account of being a zombie or something.

And merging? What was he doing sleeping, anyway? That thought weirded Sora out the most out of the entire story, so he decided to run with that topic first. He frowned, silently watching Roxas for a moment.

"Does that whole... merging thing. Does it have something to do with Nobodies?"

"I...don't think so. I think it just has to do with us," Roxas replied. "See, when someone becomes a heartless, the shell left behind is a nobody. So, you must have become a heartless, and that's how I showed up."

That sounded right, at least to Roxas. He had Sora's memories up to a point.

"I think something happened with you and Namine, and that you had to sleep so that you could be put back together. Because I'm your nobody, I guess I was the last piece."

"You're-- what's left of me?"

That was all Sora was able to spit out before he fell silent again, flabbergasted. Then, without warning, he suddenly reached toward Roxas and... prodded him lightly on the shoulder. Like he needed confirmation that Roxas was actually there. He'd need at least a few more minutes to quietly boggle before he'd think to speak again-- he certainly had the definition of a Nobody now, but he'd still need to ask for the how and the why.

"I prefer thinking that I'm just a part of you, rather than what's left," Roxas said quietly. Sure, a nobody was just an empty shell, but Roxas knew he was more than that, that all nobodies were more.

"I'm real," He said, after Sora prodded him on the shoulder.

"... Right, that makes more sense. Sorry."

He meant it, too; if Roxas really was just the empty shell he'd left behind when he'd lost his heart, why would he look so different? Wouldn't it make sense for Roxas to look like him? Sora chewed on his lip, lost in thought.

"I'm just surprised, that's all. I didn't realize someone could live without a heart."

"It's sort of weird, yeah. But I remember feelings, emotions, things like that. Sometimes really intensely, like, more than I think a nobody would. I think that's because I'm connected to you," Roxas replied.

The fact that he didn't have a heart weighed on him somewhat, but he knew he didn't experience it in the same way that Axel did.

"Well..."

Sora reached toward him again, but it's not to prod-- it's to place a comforting hand on Roxas' shoulder. He didn't know what sort of nap he could ever take that would require Roxas merging with him to wake up, but he was going to make a point to avoid it at all costs. He can't feel anything that Roxas feels, nor can he think anything that Roxas does, so why wouldn't he think of him as his own person?

He'd mentioned Naminé. Maybe he could talk to her later to figure out how not to wind up in a situation like Roxas described.

"I don't think you have to worry about merging, Roxas. I don't want to stop you from being your own person, so I'll just take really short naps from now on."

Yeah, that's... probably not how it worked, but it's all Sora's got.

Roxas nodded, and managed a smile. He was pretty sure it wasn't how it worked, but he appreciated the gesture all the same.

"Thanks Sora. I'll hold you to that," he said. "Just make sure you get enough sleep."

"Was there anything else you wanted to ask?"

"I will; don't worry."

Sora paused thoughtfully. He did have a few more questions, actually-- most of them involved what appeared to be some sort of connection between Roxas and Ven. But he just ran a hand through his hair. He'd wanted to talk to Roxas to learn more about Roxas, and nothing else.

"Can you tell me more about yourself? Is Axel your friend? And, what's the Organization?"

Roxas had to pause for a moment. There wasn't really a lot to tell about him, aside from the Organization stuff. There was Twilight Town, but that life was fake, even if Roxas wanted to hold on to it.

"Yeah, Axel's my friend, my best friend," Roxas clarified, "He was the one who found me, and then taught me stuff when I was still a zombie. I remember that everyday when we finished a mission, we would sit on the clock tower in Twilight Town and eat ice cream."

And then he left the Organization and things went sour. Roxas sighed, wishing he could have done things over, and made up with Axel.

Sora wasn't sure what Roxas meant by that sigh, though he got the feeling that maybe he should try to direct the conversation toward something a little lighter. Not that he knew if what he was about to ask would be a lighter topic, but it was worth a try, right? And he'd really like to know more about this Organization.

"So what sort of missions did you guys do together? Was it fun?"

"I think hanging out on the clock tower was more fun than the actual missions. The missions were mostly just going out to collect hearts in the different worlds, or to scout them out. That was really about it, but it was something to do."

Roxas felt like there was something missing, but he really wasn't sure what. His memories from his time in the Organization were starting to clear up, but some were still just fuzzy.

"Hanging out with your friends... That's really important to me, too. Friends are your power, right?"

Sora has no idea what Roxas meant when he said "collect hearts," but he'd mentioned previously that he releases hearts from the Heartless. Nothing wrong with that! Whatever this Organization is, they must be a band of heroes helping out with the Heartless problem or something. Sora could respect that. Heck, he was even thankful for it.

"I guess...I didn't really have a lot of friends until coming here."

Axel was definitely his closest friend. Some of the other Organization members seemed to like him, like Demyx, but most seemed to just tolerate him. He couldn't really count Hayner, Pence, or Olette, since they were all digital. The real ones probably had no idea who he was.

He survived mostly on his own strength though.

"They're still your friends though, right? They'll always be with you in your-- your memories."

Hhhhh, good save, Sora.

"I guess... it doesn't really matter where any of us wind up, as long as we have our friends by our side. And you know, as much as I miss home sometimes, I'm glad I'm here. Somehow, I get the feeling that if things continued happening the way they were supposed to, we wouldn't have had a chance to meet."

"Yeah...I guess."

Roxas sometimes ended up wondering about his memories. He didn't think he could trust them all that much. Considering he'd just regained them before coming here.

"When you were here before, you said that we did meet, but it seems like it happened a lot later," Roxas said. "I think it's good that we get to meet like this to."

"It is," Sora murmured, his gaze drifting off in the distance as he sat thoughtfully. "Maybe now we could figure out a way to... you know, not merge."

That was kind of a long shot, though-- he'd been told that sometimes, when you leave Johto, you forget everything that happened here. And then sometimes you shrink to a year younger than everybody remembers you and you're tossed back in completely unawares.

Still, if there was something Sora could do to prevent what sounded like a really unfair fate, heck, he was going to try. He still stared off down the route as he spoke, and continued doing so after he'd finished.

Roxas paused, thinking about Sora's suggestion. If they could figure that out, it would, it would be exactly what he wanted. A chance for them to keep being like this. Two separate people.

Granted, Roxas didn't really have any desire to go back to his world, unless not merging became an option and a guaranteed one at that. It hadn't been something he'd worried about here because of the lack of powers.

"Yeah, maybe. If we could, I'd like that. But for now, I'm alright just being as we are."

"As friends, right?"

Sora just needed to make sure. It would be strange to know someone who was a part of him, and then they weren't friends.

"Yeah, as friends," Roxas agreed. He wanted to be friends with Sora, had wanted to since he'd started having the dreams about him.

"Was there anything else?"

He was quiet for a few minutes, mulling that over. Was there anything else? Sure, there was plenty else, but that all felt irrelevant now. Sora knew what a Nobody was, and how he and Roxas were connected-- and there was an Organization helping fight the Heartless to boot! He was satisfied with his knowledge on what was probably uncomfortable for Roxas to share. Now it was time to focus on other things.

"I think I'm good. Want to hang back for a while, or go catch up with the others?"

"Alright," Roxas said, before pausing. He wasn't really sure what he wanted to do. He wasn't entirely comfortable joining everyone else, since he still saw himself as an outsider. He didn't really want to intrude on their friendships.

"Uh, if you want to go on, you can. I think I'm just going to train for a bit," he said finally. He felt like he needed time to think.

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Oh Sora....

Super Organization 13, awaaaaaay!

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