route_1065 | Jingle Bell, Jingle Bell, Jingle Bell Rock

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Jingle Bell, Jingle Bell, Jingle Bell Rock

Who: Homestuck cast (sob too many to list)
Where: Somewhere in Goldenrod City that can handle all these chillens
When: Christmas Day
Summary: Christmas Shenanigans with any and all Homestucks!
Rating: C for Cute, M for the mouths of Striders because DANG, YOU GUYS. WASH YOUR MOUTHS.
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[[Rose listens, rambling or not, and sits as suggested.]]

Really, both can matter. Though what happens from here on out will likely take precedence.

Mm. [Well, that would make sense. Sort of. Kanaya is quiet for a few moments, staring at the snow. She wraps her arms around her stomach because she probably should've thought to put her coat before going out, but the sweater is helping some.]

[Now how to...]

Just before I was brought here, we were on a date. You kissed me.

[Then fell down the stairs, but perhaps leave that part out.]

...oh. [[Well. That. Explains a lot now doesn't it? And then here Kanaya was walking in on her and John...]]

I can...certainly better understand why you're so upset now.

Mm. [Kanaya just makes a vaguely unhappy sound.]

Yes. And no one thought to mention...well. And I was attempting to determine some way of finding out where you were, timewise, to see if I should and then...

[She just waves her hand vaguely in the air like 'and there it was.']

I...honestly hadn't thought to. Likely an error on my part, but I assume no one really enjoys hearing someone prattle on about their relationships the minute that they arrive here. I do apologize that that was how you had to find out.

And...no. I'm not that far along myself.

If it will help any further avoidance of...uncomfortable situations. The easiest way to learn where someone is at timewise is to simply ask them first, and then explain what you feel comfortable doing so from your end afterward. [[The least she can do is try and help with that.]]

It is not your fault. [Though she was blaming Rose at the moment, she knew, but she couldn't seem to bring herself not to, not yet.]

I...as far as I have determined, no one is as far along as I, except perhaps Aradia. I...suppose I should have taken that into consideration, honestly.

[She's falls silent again, frowning faintly, nibbling at her bottom lip in frustration.]

I did not expect this.

What reason would you have to expect this?

I...none. There wasn't any reason to expect this. But...except that you've been here for years, someone said. That's...

Things change.

Two. Not that long, but...admittedly not that short a time either. And yes, things do change, though this also wasn't a recent development out shining whatever has transpired at home. I spent...a year and a half here without ever getting to know you any better than what our initial pesterlogs were like. Before the game. The few times you did appear here, we never really talked. You were busy with Scratch and killing Eridan, and I with being Karkat's coleader and moirail.

You weren't here for long though either, so even if we had spoken more...

Scratch? [Kanaya blinks slowly. She hadn't even thought about him in years, really. The revelation that what he had done for her had just been in accordance with his own goals had been depressing, but it had severed any real connection she might have had to him.] I...

[Beat.]

You were Karkat's Moirail?

Yes, he was here for a while. You and he were very close. And yes. I was. Again, for a while.

Yes, we've always...[Lord, that was another emotional issue she didn't need to trip and fall in at the moment.] I'm glad he had someone here for that. He...needs it more than he is generally willing to admit.

[And they are getting rather off topic, aren't they.]

Anyway, I think...this will just take some adjustement, I need to...[Well, if she was being completely honest, she needed to cry some more, but she wasn't going to do that in front of Rose if she could avoid it.] I don't know. Sort it out.

Yes, he certainly does. And that's fine. I just...I just wanted to make sure that if you wanted to talk, you knew that we could. Because we can.

[Kanaya smiles, but it's slightly bitter.]

Rose, please do not be offended by this, but if our circumstances were reversed, what would you wish to speak to me about?

No offense taken. But to be honest, I would want to at least explain my situation if circumstances were reversed. If nothing else.

[She's quiet for a moment, looking...almost frustrated, really.]

Well. Now you know. For all the good that does. I almost think I would rather you did not.

But if I did not, this would be an awkward tango where one party was upset, and the other would know they are upset and feel like shit because she has no idea why her friend is upset, but is pretty sure it's because of her. Maybe it was something she did. Perhaps she said something to offend her, or fucked something up.

[[Rose plays with her skirt for a moment, looking at her lap.]]

I'm not happy that it's nothing I can...really fix for you. But I wouldn't want to sit here thinking I may have irreparably ruined our friendship or something because I may have said or done something horribly wrong. Just...you know. Personally speaking. Not that this is exactly that kind of a situation but...I don't know. And wow, look who's rambling now. [[A quiet chuckle.]]

I-[Damn it, why was Rose always so good at summing things up like that? Kanaya didn't really know what to say for a moment, just frowning at the snow. The cold was starting to seep in through her sweater, and she shifted a bit in her seat.]

We will still be friends. Of course. Not that...not that any of this is your fault, or John's [Not that she can stop hating him right now, whoops.] It is just...

Well.

I hope you don't mind if I am not exactly intending to spend a lot of time around you for a little while.

[A weak sort of smile, as it's about the best sort of half-joke she can manage at the moment.]

[[She...actually kind of does mind that. She gets why Kanaya wouldn't want to, but no matter what the former troll says it sort of makes her feel like she's in the wrong here.

Which she just isn't.

So it hurts a little.]]

That's...that's fine.

[[Rose straightens up a little, evening her expression out as best as she can.]]

I understand. I'm sure I would have a difficult time dealing with you being happy if the situation were reversed, circumstances taken into consideration. I wouldn't want to force you into such an uncomfortable situation.

[[Ah, falling back on old passive aggressive defenses. Perfect tactic when you're just not sure how you feel about something.]]

[Kanaya isn't quite the best at spotting Rose's particular shifts into passive aggressive land, but she's been around her long enough to know when something changes, so her jade eyes narrow for a moment thoughtfully, and she sighs.]

It is not being happy, it...[How to explain.] I...do not wish to intrude. And I am not certain that I wouldn't, even if accidentally.

[That and seeing them kissing had been a hell of a shock. She's not really prepared to do it again.]

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